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and I cry and no one can hear in hell
the blinded eyes that see the chaos
bring the pitiful to me
even though I’m wide awake I will
and blackest night and I wait for you
it’s cold in here there’s no one left
and I wait for you
and nothing stops it happening
and I knew I’d cherish all my misery alone

and I wait staring at the northern star
I’m afraid it won’t lead me anywhere
he’s so cold he will ruin the world tonight
all the angels kneel into the northern lights
kneeling to the frozen lights

and they paid, I cry and cry for you
ghosts that haunt you with their sorrow
I cried ‘cause you were doomed
praying to the wound that swallows
all that’s cold and cruel
can you see the trees
charity and gratitude they run to the pines
it’s black in here blot out the sun
and run to the pines
our misery runs wild and free
and I knew the fire and the ashes of his grace

and I wait staring at the northern star
I’m afraid it won’t lead you very far
he’s so cold he will win the world tonight
all the angels kneel into the frozen lights
feel their hearts they’re cold and white

and I want you
and blessed are the broken
and I beg you
no loneliness no misery is worth you
oh tear his heart out cold as ice it’s mine

and I wait praying to the northern star
I’m afraid it won’t lead you anywhere
he’s so cold raining on the world tonight
all the angels kneeling to the northern lights

and I pray begging to the northern star
I’m afraid it won’t lead you anywhere
he’s so cold he will rule the world tonight
all the angles kneeling to the northern lights
kneeling to the frozen lights
feel their hearts they’re cold as ice

– Hole, “Northern Star”

Quest’estate Hawaii, ma quest’inverno vorrei tanto andare al nord, vedere tanto buio, tanta neve, tante luci blu. Ho tanta voglia di latitudini estreme, freddo pungente sulle guance, foreste. Guidare per un sacco di chilometri in macchina con qualcuno, ascoltando musica e chiacchierando. Chissà? So anche con chi vorrei andare, ma come dice Courtney Love, “and I wait staring the northern star, I’m afraid it won’t lead me anywhere“. Ho idea che rimarrà solo un sogno o – se sarò fortunata - un racconto. Sono stufa di volere cose impossibili. Sono stufa di volere e basta… Sono stufa di tante cose e in questi giorni ho solo voglia di partire per le Hawaii e stare tre settimane per i cazzi miei. Fare un viaggio lunghissimo e lontanissimo da sola. Ho voglia di troppe cose irrealizzabili e sono davvero stufa.

cold turkey: di punto in bianco (relativo ad abitudini quali droga, fumo, alcohol, etc.)

Oggi è il decimo giorno del mio balzanissimo programma di disintossicazione. In pratica, ho eliminato dalla mia dieta zucchero, caffeina, alcolici e prodotti animali. Che cosa rimane? Beh, tutto il resto, no? Hey, dopotutto, l’ha fatto anche Oprah! :-) Tra l’altro, l’ha fatto anche Morgan Spurlock dopo aver finito di girare Supersize Me.

Non sento la mancanza di nulla in particolare (a parte la cronica carenza di sonno, ma quella è un’altra storia), anche se ammetto che resistere all’alcol è difficile, soprattutto uscendo con le mie amiche alcolizzate… Eliminare zucchero e caffeina è stato incredibilmente semplice (l’ultima volta che l’ho fatto ho avuto emicranie per tre giorni). Eliminare poi tutti i cibi di origine animale è stato decisamente liberatorio (anche se non mi sono ancora trovata davanti un piattone di sushi a cui dover dire “no, grazie”!).

L’idea è di tener duro fino a fine mese; poi, si vedrà.

When you feel down, I recommend to you
Have lots of fruits and vegetables
When you feel sad, I recommend to you
Have lots of fruits and vegetables

Nice fresh fruits and vegetables, make you feel so free
I’m talking about my own life, I love to feel free too

When you feel lonely, i recommend to you
Have lots of fruits and vegetables
When you feel like crying, i recommend to you
Have lots of fruits and vegetables

When you feel down, i recommend to you
Have lots of fruits and vegetables
When you feel sad, i recommend to you
Have lots of fruits and vegetables

Nice fresh fruits and vegetables, make you feel so free
I’m talking about my own life, i love to feel free too

Vitamins, minerals, energy and more
Let’s eat fruits and vegetables
Orange, apple, banana, grape, cherry, melon
Avocado, carrot, radish

Nice fresh fruits and vegetables, make you feel so free
I’m talking about my own life, by the way, i eat chicken, too

Na, na, na, na…. na, na, na, na….
Na, na, na, na…. na, na, na, na….
Na, na, na, na…. na, na, na, na….
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na….

– Shonen Knife, “Fruits and vegetables”

…dedicato a…

I don’t think you understand
That what you’re doing is not so cool
You think it’s funny to mess with my mind
Don’t you

You know I like you so you just tease me
You give me just enough to hang on enough
When you’re just wasting my time
You’re simply wasting my time
So quit wasting my time

Do you hear me when I say
So let me ask you something
Do you think I’m pretty or don’t you
Do you wanna get with me or not

Or are you just wasting my time
You’re simply wasting my time
So quit wasting my time
And what have you got to say
Well things have got to change
Say this just isn’t right
I don’t wanna have to fight
And I think I’d better go
Cause this ain’t working out any more
and I’m sorry, sorry, sorry

Understand
That what you did
Was just not so cool
Baby, you’re just not that cool

– Boomkat, “Wasting my time”

when the sun is high
I get up from my bed
I play my favourite record
the volume turned down

drink a glass of fresh water
and give the cat some milk
turn off the sound of the news on telly
which I hate

some day eventually
summer will come to an end
and if we part, even so
I will survive to see another autumn
I will survive on my own
I will survive

god is testing me
this is a period I have to go through I guess
my favourite record
always ends too fast

some day eventually
summer will come to an end
I’ll put on a new shirt
and I will live my new life
I will live all by myself
I will live

god is testing me
it is a period I have to go through I guess
I won’t be listening to my favourite record for quite a while
until another summer comes

– Pizzicato Five, “Ma vie, l’été de vie”

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