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Stasera piove a dirotto.

Salendo in macchina ho acceso la radio e immancabilmente ecco subito “Umbrella” di Rhianna (che – a dire del dj - a furia di cantarla un po’ l’ha menata :)

Devo ammettere che mi è sempre sembrata un po’ insipida per non dire idiota come canzone, ma stasera aveva un suo perché, tra il diluvio incessante e il fatto di avere appena imprestato l’ombrello a un amico.

E quindi beccatevi questa canzone..

Nel frattempo io cercherò di riscaldarmi un po’, pensando a come sarà freddo e triste l’autunno se.. /*_*|

I hate monday mornings. I always feel like I could (or should) have been doing a lot more stuff than I actually did during the weekend, the days just flew by and, on top of it all, I didn’t get enough sleep. This morning, God knows why, I feel even grumpier than usual.

So, this morning I was listening to my ipod as usual, and I was thinking about randomness. Some people tell me that I read too much into things, that I always see stuff where perhaps there really isn’t anything to be seen, that I am too superstitious. It’s not like I go around looking for animals to kill so I can inspect their entrails like a haruspex.. But I admit that I tend to believe in a lot of things (some might say, bullshit).

Anyway, I was thinking.. is randomness really random? I mean, considering all the possible outcomes of a random event, how likely is it to get the result that you are hoping for? And I’m not just talking about probability theory and statistical distributions. What I’m trying to say is, if you do get that result, will it mean anything? How random can randomness really be?

If you care to know, I was thinking that if I put the ipod on random, and one song of 3 possible ones would play, then it would mean something. Then, if another song of about 10 possible ones would play as the next random track, it would mean something else. And you know, silly as  I am, I was really hoping that this all would happen, although I knew that it wasn’t very likely, as I have about 100 tracks on my ipod at the moment. So when it *did* happen.. just in the way I had wished for, in that exact order, the first thing that came to my mind was: WOW! My second thought was: girl, you shouldn’t really play the so-called “randomness game” as carelessly as you do.  And then, I started to really wonder.. and as hard as it will be for some of you to admit..

no, randomness isn’t really random at all

PS: Although I hate statistics, I do know my math and I just made a quick calculation.. The chance of this happening was 0,6%. Pretty slim, ah??!?

What to do to turn a dull day into a great night:

• patting horses in the night
• walking in the park when it’s dark, and the only light comes from camp fires
• drinking strong apple cider brewed by French monks
• crying from too much laughter
• getting a caress on the cheek by a blue-eyed medieval knight
• looking at the constellations
• thinking.. what, and if, and why, and why not
• blasting the stereo at 3 am taking my friends home
• and of course, singing along

It’s not the way you smile that touched my heart.
It’s not the way you kissed that tears me apart.

Many, many, many nights go by.
I sit alone at home and cry over you.
What can I do?
Don’t want nobody, nobody
Cause, baby, it’s you.
Baby, it’s you.

Is it true what they say about you?
They say you’ll never, ever, never be true.

It doesn’t matter what they say.
I know I’m gonna love you any old way.
What can I do?
What ’bout you?
Don’t want nobody, nobody.
Baby, it’s you.

— Baby, it’s you (as sung by Smith, from the Death Proof soundtrack)

… because you’re mine (as sung by Natacha Atlas) 

Have you ever wanted something so bad, and thought about it so much, so hard, that it physically hurts? Have you ever wondered how far you would go, if there was only one chance in Heaven or Hell that your wish could come true?

Well, today I have.

What was on my mind, though, I am not going to say here. I am pretty damn sure that in the future when I’ll read this post, I will remember *just* exactly what it was.

I am so bored tonight. Must be all the dairy and sugar I had for lunch..

I was browsing through my old mp3s trying to find something good to put on my ipod, but could only dig out a bunch of tracks that are going to make me want to either steer the wheel and throw myself in the ditch or press my foot on the accelerator until I am far, far, far away from where I was supposed to go. Tomorrow driving’s going to be fun.. /@_@\

If you are feeling sympathetic, go on and plug the following tracks onto your ipod:

• Joan Jett – Crimson and clover
• John Denver – Take me home country roads
• The Donnas – Dancing with myself
• X-Ray Spex – Germfree adolescents
• Lisa Ekdahl – Daybreak
• Johnny Cash – Ring of fire

Well, don’t tell me I didn’t warn you!!!